I want to be of better service to myself. Right now I think how I can best do that is finding how I can be of better service to others. I currently work for a small local independent coffee house. I love the people I work for and the community I serve. But we are making sacrifices to keep it at ground level. That is the trade off with "keepin' it local" We are a small team at the cafe. We must all uphold a personal standard, I mean this in a broad, general sense too. The "cafe" is also the world out on display. Yet when the self "side work" slips, the whole mechanism derails and the work becomes harder. We all are learning to work as a team, but sometimes we slip and we have to pull up each other's slack. Finding the desired balance, the appropriate amount of slack and tension in the rope can be tricky.
In my position now, I do not have a lot of the "perks" or "opportunities" that an employee at an other major coffee shop chain would have. No real opportunity, as it seems now, for promotion due to the family structure of the business, they have the manager positions and such covered. No benefit programs due to current budget. Raises really are dependent on our ability to all work together as a better tight knit team, but the staff gets often over worked and tired and starts to loose the ohana vibe. We are all, the owners and the workers pulled in many directions as life spins us round.
But I work hard. I am on my feet and tippy toes. Hands and knees for 7 and a half hours a day. "If there is time to lean, there is time to clean" I feel as though I am constantly playing catch up with the cafe. Or maybe just to myself. Then there are times when I start to loose the groove and my friends and co-workers pick up my slack a bit. There are now some co-workers that I feel personally disrespected by, and feel an acceleration of drama with. But what part of the situation is my own drama or the parts of myself that I am not respecting? What am I projecting? Or am I mind spinning again in my guilt game, and is it okay for me to think that these people are just kind of lame? Work is tiring. That is a fact. But I am questioning what is the true balanced compensation for a day's work. I am working to make money right? Well, that is one part of the equation. I am also working because it is part of my duty, my service here on Earth. To learn to be a good human. The best I can be. There is so much I learn from my current job in the "karma" meeter. But the truth of the matter is, it doesn't pay enough for what I need right now. I could be making more money working somewhere else. I am thinking about "selling out". I am interested in Peet's Coffee & Tea. I really enjoy playing barista. And I am interested in learning more about the structure of "the systems" Or also, I am interested in an Insurance Company even. But they sell coverage to tattoo artists and piercers, so that makes it cool. And really, there are lots of options, nothing but options.
I want what we all want, and really, what shouldn't be all that hard to get. The ability to provide for myself in a work environment that feels like a balanced exchange. I really do think it is all a reflection of the power within, I know we all can "win", but maybe in order to "get out" we also have to "go in" And sometimes that may mean "selling out" And at times, we may need to recognize when the lessons have shifted, when the glass surface has been cleaned and someone's drama may actually not be your Karma. And to find your dharma, this time, it's okay to let go. It's time to better communicate with ourselves and "the bosses" too. What is "right" or "true" right now, I really don't know, but tomorrow, what I will I do? I will go to work at 5:30 a.m. A smile on my face, grateful I woke up and get to start off the day with a great cup of coffee. I will breathe, I will be, and I will serve. I will serve others to learn how to better serve myself. "Saving the world" one latte at a time. And this pictured spin, is for me, a shift into what may be in store for my greater overarching story that currently waits in line.
In my position now, I do not have a lot of the "perks" or "opportunities" that an employee at an other major coffee shop chain would have. No real opportunity, as it seems now, for promotion due to the family structure of the business, they have the manager positions and such covered. No benefit programs due to current budget. Raises really are dependent on our ability to all work together as a better tight knit team, but the staff gets often over worked and tired and starts to loose the ohana vibe. We are all, the owners and the workers pulled in many directions as life spins us round.
But I work hard. I am on my feet and tippy toes. Hands and knees for 7 and a half hours a day. "If there is time to lean, there is time to clean" I feel as though I am constantly playing catch up with the cafe. Or maybe just to myself. Then there are times when I start to loose the groove and my friends and co-workers pick up my slack a bit. There are now some co-workers that I feel personally disrespected by, and feel an acceleration of drama with. But what part of the situation is my own drama or the parts of myself that I am not respecting? What am I projecting? Or am I mind spinning again in my guilt game, and is it okay for me to think that these people are just kind of lame? Work is tiring. That is a fact. But I am questioning what is the true balanced compensation for a day's work. I am working to make money right? Well, that is one part of the equation. I am also working because it is part of my duty, my service here on Earth. To learn to be a good human. The best I can be. There is so much I learn from my current job in the "karma" meeter. But the truth of the matter is, it doesn't pay enough for what I need right now. I could be making more money working somewhere else. I am thinking about "selling out". I am interested in Peet's Coffee & Tea. I really enjoy playing barista. And I am interested in learning more about the structure of "the systems" Or also, I am interested in an Insurance Company even. But they sell coverage to tattoo artists and piercers, so that makes it cool. And really, there are lots of options, nothing but options.
I want what we all want, and really, what shouldn't be all that hard to get. The ability to provide for myself in a work environment that feels like a balanced exchange. I really do think it is all a reflection of the power within, I know we all can "win", but maybe in order to "get out" we also have to "go in" And sometimes that may mean "selling out" And at times, we may need to recognize when the lessons have shifted, when the glass surface has been cleaned and someone's drama may actually not be your Karma. And to find your dharma, this time, it's okay to let go. It's time to better communicate with ourselves and "the bosses" too. What is "right" or "true" right now, I really don't know, but tomorrow, what I will I do? I will go to work at 5:30 a.m. A smile on my face, grateful I woke up and get to start off the day with a great cup of coffee. I will breathe, I will be, and I will serve. I will serve others to learn how to better serve myself. "Saving the world" one latte at a time. And this pictured spin, is for me, a shift into what may be in store for my greater overarching story that currently waits in line.
Hi Rita, I would deeply love to speak with you, I believe I found your facebook, so I tried contact ing you through there, but haven't gotten a response yet. I have something I would like to share with you, which is the motive as to why I've tried tracking you down. Maybe it's not even you, but it sure does feel like it is, and over the past year I have learnt to trust my instinct, so here I am! If you have skype, we may speak through there if you wish! If not, you should find a message from me on your Facebook. Best of wishes! JD.
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